My darling Luke, I can’t believe it’s November already. 1 year ago, everything was fantastic in both of our lives. You had just started your dream course studying graphic design and I had just come back home from traveling. We had been fortunate enough to have been introduced to one another before everything was cut short. Our story had only just begun.
It was very early days for us both when it happened but I liked to believe that what we had was good. We were definitely heading in the right direction and I was so excited to see where things went. We had both recently just come out of long term relationships. Neither relationship was great and we both said we didn’t realise that there was better out there until we had met each other.
I remember the first time you came and spoke to me at work. You shook my hand and introduced yourself, “Hi, I’m Luke and I’m your team leader, it’s lovely to meet you Ashleigh” Hahaha, this still makes me laugh to this day. You took your job so seriously and not going to lie, you were the most irritating guy to work with ever.
Our very first shift together even got people talking, I remember everyone being like “oh look at Ashleigh and Luke” “There will be a new Sainsburys couple soon just you wait and see” I won’t lie I absolutely loved the attention especially when you never denied any of it. I knew from the start that there was something special about you and I knew we would be even more special together.
After a few weeks…
After a few weeks of talking and flirting at work. The weekend came and everyone from work was heading for a night out in town. Unfortunately, you and I were stuck doing the late shift.
I was working till 8 pm and you were there till 10:30 pm. I kept pestering you all evening saying “please come out after work” and “It would be so good if you did”
I didn’t want to come across as needy but at the same time I wanted you there more than anything. You replied, “I can’t, I’m working till 10:30 pm and I haven’t got any money at all”.
Which surprised me more than ever when someone came and put there freezing cold hands on my back as I was stood waiting at the bar. I turned around and who winks at me? Mr Luke Mumford the boy who was working late and had no money at all.
After you had passed away, I found out from your best friend that you begged her to lend you money all because you wanted to see me. It would have been the first time we had a chance to spend time together outside of work. It absolutely melts my heart to think you went through all that effort for me.
From this point…
From this point, we hit it off. We spent so much time together, here, there and everywhere. We met each other’s families and friends and everything was going great. My mum absolutely idolised you and even told me herself that you were a keeper and she was not far from wrong.
I loved spending time with your mum and getting to know your brother as well. I knew you were both extremely close, so what made you happy, made me happy too. As much as I felt sorry for your mum, it was always so entertaining when you and Adam used to gang up on her at the dinner table. Although she definitely got her revenge when she pulled out the photo album and you practically run away crying haha! what a cute little baby you were.
I have so many great memories with you Luke, I wouldn’t even know where to begin. You were always a true gentleman and I can’t say any guy has come close to the dates you took me on. There were no typical Nando’s dates with you my dear. I remember when you took me to that old thatched-roof restaurant in the countryside that had candlelight tables, I almost died.
You were so thoughtful and so romantic, always trying to please everyone around you.
You were the naughtiest…
You were the naughtiest cheekiest boy I knew. My last memory of you before you left my house that night was when I walked you to the door to say goodbye. You slapped my bum and ran down my driveway shouting “either come and catch me now or you’ll have to tell me off later” That was the last time I saw you.
Having that memory as our last memory just goes to show how much of a happy and funny guy you were, never ever failed to make me laugh. Another great example of your cheekiness is when you somehow got me to sign myself up for a 9-hour shift on a Saturday, just so you could see me. I hated work but I literally came in just for you.
How on earth did you manage that
I just genuinely can’t believe it’s been a whole year now since we lost you. It most definitely hasn’t been the easiest of rides. Then again, I like to think I’ve done really well since and I hope you are proud of me. In fact, I know you are proud of me. Having never really experienced losing someone so close before you, I can’t deny it’s such a strange feeling.
Although you are gone I have many days where I feel you are still here. I like to believe you do look down on us all. It’s ridiculous but I find myself talking to you all the time and I know you listen.
Not a single day goes by where I don’t miss you or even think about you. You were the most fantastic guy I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. I’m sure you already did but I just want you to know I did adore you. We didn’t exactly get to share the longest amount of time together but I will treasure the time I were fortunate enough to have.
Thank you for being a part of my life and showing me what true happiness felt like.